Well technically my first entry on this new account

For those who have not read my about me section I am a returning member of Daily Strength. I took a long break due to a type of therapy that I was in for the last 4 years. It is an intense therapy and I allowed my old account to lapse because at that time in my life I did not feel like I was much good to anyone.... even my self. Right now I am in the middle of a bi polar cycle. It seemed to "peak" today, so I am hopeful that I am at least half way through it. I use the word "peak" because I have noticed that whenever I am in a cycle it seems to climax to its full potential either right in the middle of the cycle or right before it ends. No sure if anyone else has the same experience, I am just going by the climax of my brain activity. Oh how I wish I could be in the warm bed cuddled with my man right now, listening to our new "furry baby" (1 year old pit bull named River) snoring. But as all of us bipolars know......when you are in a cycle.....night time darkness + silence = the debil (yes DEBIL...reference from the movie Waterboy).
So there we have it. In a cycle. My brain is in full throttle. And I am awake and fighting chaotic and defeating thoughts.