well, just another day to be thankful

Well, this weekend really sucked. It started of good. I was invited to go have a beer with a friend because she was promoted to a higher position.  So her, I and a few other friends had fun.  I sold my truck because I was going to get another car. The flippin dealership told me everything was good to go and all I needed was the 1000$ dollar down payment.  When I sold my truck and came I with the down payment,  all of a sudden they couldn't finance me. so now I am screwed without a car.  to top it off, Sarah tried to call me three times Saturday morning.  I found out later my son wanted to talk to me.  Drives me fucking nuts, because she filed a restraining order for harassment against me, but thinks she can talk to me when she wants to about the boys.  In what sane mind does that work? I am just going cra,with all of this.  I still do not want this divorce,  and am doing things so much better now, but she still doesn't talk to me.  We have a hearing for the order of protection on the 24th at 830.  We will see what the judge says.  I am truly confused.  She says she wants me in my boys lifes, but attempts to take me out with a restraining order.  Wtf?  I am working my butt off and am making good money now, so I will see if ican afford an attorney.  I need a good one.  I want to go to counseling with her to make this work.  I do not want her back unless she wants to.  I pray to god that she soon realizes I am doing the things I am doing because I care and not just to get her back.  I get more frustrated each day as it goes by.  Please pray with me.