Welcome back?

Hah! Feeling like this is not welcome.  I have never, EVER, in my life been this fat!  I am sad, angry...no livid, with myself.  And then I take another bite of pie, or chips, or whatever I can get my hands on.  I'm working now, which helps, but my personal relationships are in a real mess, and that  just messes me up completely.  Everytime someone says something, I interpret it as bad and eat.