Weird Habits

Before I go to bed I try to make sure the last thing I say to anybody is, "I love you." Because I'm scared that I might die overnight. I want the last thing I say to anybody be something special and worth remembering because it might be the last time I see them. Also, when I was younger (and still now) every time someone used to leave the house I would tell them I loved them, hug them, and then run to the window and watch them leave in their car. Why? Because I was worried they wouldn't come back. That they would die. I first thought of this when I was like, 9. I am one weird person.. o.O