weird day
Today was kind of a weird day as far as my eating and exercising goes. I am always able to do more exercise in the am than the afternoon. Yesterday I did 120 steps on the treadmill. This morning I couldn't get passed 92. Today was my day to take care of my mom. They always have junk food over there and since I've started my new eating style I haven't really been tempted. Today though, they had chocolate old fashioned donuts sitting out. I passed them up in the morning, even closed the lid and pushed them to the back of the counter where they weren't so visible. But around lunch time I couldn't resist and had one. I was glad that I had only one, because I've been known to scarf down a whole box within a couple of hours. For lunch I had a whole wheat english muffin with cream cheese, so all in all it wasn't that bad. For dinner I had planned to have a baked potato and hamburger patty.. I bought all the fixins for the potato. I was getting really hungry waiting for the potatoes to cook so I had a snack of a skinny cow popsicle. I was still really hungry so I had some crackers and cheese (which I ended dipping into the sour cream. Finally the potatoes were done and I hafixed all the toppings and stuff and about half way through i was full but still wanted to eat. I ended up finishing the potato. My stomach was full, but I still wanted to eat. I ate 3 marshmallows then after that I was satisfied. A little later I started feeling uncomfortably full. I guess I ate too fast so my brain didn't catch up with my stomach or something. I felt bad for overeating so I pushed myself on the treadmill. I was able to do 105 steps, which is good because previously in the evenings I haven't been able to do more than 70. Sometimes as few as 30. I have been feeling all day like I am slipping. I am so afraid that I will just give in and throw away all my progress. On the upside. My son made me a hamburger and I truned it down. I really wanted a 2nd and a 3rd skinny cow pop but I stopped at one. I also only had 3 marshmallows that could have easily turned into half a bag or more.
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Sorry about the triple entry. My computer is really being rebellious. stupid machines!
I think today was a very good day for you!
First, you went to take care of your Mom. I know that although clearly you love your Mom...it has to be stressful....and then she had trigger foods sitting out.
I have always had a hard time stopping at one donut. I can easily eat 3 at once, and 3 more later, etc.
YOU STOPPED AT ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU STOPPED AT ONE POP
YOU ATE ONLY 3 MARSHMALLOWS!!!!!!!!!
To me, it is not about never eating sweets again.
That sounds too much like the switch that turns on my \"deprivation mechanism\" that sends me into binging on whatever I feel deprived of.
For me, it is controlling portions and learning not to eat as a response to anxiety, boredom, comfort-seeking...etc. etc.
YOU DID GREAT TODAY!!!!!
Like you said....it could easily have been so much worse.
For me though, I don\'t trust myself with certain foods yet. Things like donuts, crackers, etc....are things I have really overeaten in the past. Right now, I am sticking with foods I like...but are not trigger foods for me.
Hugs,
Truth
Wow you did really, really well! Glad to see so many steps in the evening for you, you\'ve been working hard on that. Don\'t sweat the computer, lol, they are a pain sometimes!