weekly J post
No matter how over J I am- when I walk out of my office on monday nights and I see he's already left I always feel a little tinge. I guess I just wished he was beside himself without me- I know that's not true. Also- I know he feels a certain level of victory when he leaves before me- like he one- upped me.
J is just something I'll never feel good about. I was genuinely in love with him. I wish he wasn't who he is. That's a wish that will never come true. No matter how many times we wish people weren't who they are- it never works. People are what they are- the only way that changes is if they decide to change it.
I was just another notch on his belt. I didn't win that one- not w him anyway. But I'm here- and mentally I am 1000 times better than when we first met. I've made so many improvements.
I don't regret it. I never will. Its for the best. But it just doesn't feel good. And not good is about as good as it gets between me and J. And that's just what's up.
J is just something I'll never feel good about. I was genuinely in love with him. I wish he wasn't who he is. That's a wish that will never come true. No matter how many times we wish people weren't who they are- it never works. People are what they are- the only way that changes is if they decide to change it.
I was just another notch on his belt. I didn't win that one- not w him anyway. But I'm here- and mentally I am 1000 times better than when we first met. I've made so many improvements.
I don't regret it. I never will. Its for the best. But it just doesn't feel good. And not good is about as good as it gets between me and J. And that's just what's up.
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