Weekend Update

Dear Fred:
Well, another week end bights the dust.  This week end wasn't nearly as tearful as other have been. I am getting pretty good at just refusing to think abou what has really happened.  I don't know if this is good or bad but it is the only way I can get through the days.  I cannot look ahead to the future.  When I do, I find I do not want a future.   Maybe time will soften this.  But, for now I simply cannot look ahead.
This week end also was pretty good as I had a lot of company and contact with friends & neighbors.  John sprayed the thistles while Lee Ann & I had a good visit.  We then went to dinner and then to Chermak's for a little birthday celebration.  Tom & Molly were there as well.  This was the first birthday without Nick.  They all really went out of their way to make sure I was alright.  I do not think I would have made it even for a month without their caring and friendship.
Today Doris came over a couple of times.  She was working a split shift.  We went to lunch.  She went back to work.  She got off work.  We went and ate ice cream.
I am enjoying the new people I am getting in contact with through DS.  It actually has helped a lot to hear what others think and have experienced.  I do not feel as alone as I did.  
Well, it is way past bed time.  In just 5 hours I will be taking Kay to have her surgery on her arm/hand.  zi hope it goes  well.
Good night, Fred.  
Darlene      7/16 & 7/17, 2011