Week 3 C25K Success!

Today I finished the third week of the C25K program on Spark People. Two weeks from today, I will be doing my 5K! I'm excited, and want to skip ahead on my walks so I can finish earlier, but I need to know it's designed for people who don't have a lot of workout experience like me in mind. I also decided I'm going to start walking and jogging a mile on Sundays to give myself some time to try and increase my speed. Don't get me wrong- it's going to be a lot of walking with just a bit of jogging, but anything is better than the nothing I've been doing on Sundays. I just want to get my speed faster so I can start the next step on the C25K (walking and jogging one) when I'm done with this one in a mere two weeks! I walked further than I ever have in the almost 2 years I've lived in this apartment (2.25 miles) and I'm feeling good.
Moods are doing okay. I know I seem so excited when I wrote that stuff above, and I do, don't get me wrong, I'm excited about it, but at the same time I'm tired. I got bad news about my health insurance today (basically I have none for anything less than $750 a month) so I have to pay everything out of pocket. I crashed emotionally when I got home after hearing that. I was just so depressed. It's one of the reasons I went for the long walk I did today, because I just needed to do something and get out of the house and *think*. It's not going to be too big of a deal, my therapist wants to see me every two weeks and I can do that, and I can afford my meds since I'm on cheap meds, so the big things are covered. 
I crashed so hard when I got home I got suicidal for just a couple minutes. It's rough, thinking that everything is black and you aren't going to be able to afford anything, but I got out of the depression by walking for the most part. I'm still depressed on the inside, but I'm not that depressed anymore. Tomorrow is Geo's little brother's 9th birthday party, and we are going to have to go to the party somewhere and do who knows what. I don't know what time it's going to be, how long it's going to last, nothing. I don't like not knowing stuff like that, and I'm not in a good mood so I'm going to have to be careful. With my moods changing the way they are, it's not a good sign. It's also getting close to "that time of the month" (well, third month) for me, so I'm even more moody. I'm thinking about skipping it all together, but I'm not sure about that yet. I have the pills to do it (I got my refill yesterday, which is good because those pills are $150 for the 3 month supply) but I don't know if I want to do it physically. I will have to give it more thought.
As for the "getting a job when the time comes" that I was talking about yesterday, today I talked with the guy in Volunteer services at the clinic and he asked me if I was going to seek employment when I felt up to it and I said yes. I guess that covers that. My volunteer time will be like a long interview I guess. I'm not too worried, since I know I can do a good job and I will be an asset to the company so it's not a big deal. I'm good at my jobs when I put my mind to them, and I can do anything I put my mind to.
Stress- High today, but countered with the walking. Mood is swinging, so I'm going to put okay. I didn't eat enough food today, but I just haven't been hungry with the depression. Sleep- I got about 12 hours last night with no nap, so that's not too bad.

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deleted_user

It\'s good to see that you are having success with your c25k program, don\'t skip ahead on it, sthick with it as it it designed so you get the maximum benifit from it. I think that would be the best way to do it. Have a happy 4th.
ann54
ann54

i agree, stick with the program, you are doing so well. the walking is definelty helpful with stress. take it easy in the heat and drink plenty of water. happy 4th.