Weepy......
I have wondered why why have I been weepy more lately.....Well, no wonder it is
18 months today since my baby went to Heaven....I can not imagine that I have not
seen him, talked to him, held his hand, hear him laugh, help me with my computer
18 Months ago, How could it be 18 months when it seems like yesterday....How can it
be possible that my life was put on hold 18 months ago....How can it be that each
minute, each hour for 18 months I have missed my son so much....How can it be that
if this is how it feel this bad at 18 months....that in 36 weeks ....that 48 weeks....
and on and on....the hours...the days...the weeks....THE PAIN.....How I miss you my
son.....how I wish to just be with you again....just to have a talk....just to hear "I
Love you.....It's this simple....if death is simple..........I MISS YOU MORE THAN I EVER
DID....I LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS I EVER DID.....MY PAIN IS AS DEEP AS IT EVER WAS..
EIGHTEEN MONTHS AND I AM JUST AS WEEPY AND SAD AS I WAS EIGHTEEN
MONTHS AGO.....This has been the most difficult, longest journey I have ever
Traveled.....and it will be until the day we see each other again.....I hope you
know, I hope you can feel my love for you is everlasting.....MISSING YOU KEN...
MY SON, MY BABY, MY FRIEND.....I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH....
One day at a time is all I can do....I will still cry....I will always be sad....I will
always miss you forever.....I would give anything if this has never happened
I would give anything to have taken you place...This just seems so unreal to
me that you should be gone before me....We should have had so many years
together, to share, to laugh, to talk, to grow old together....that is what we
should have had.....I love you my son....yesterday, today and forever......
Forever your mom, Forever your my son....I love you,,,,mom
18 months today since my baby went to Heaven....I can not imagine that I have not
seen him, talked to him, held his hand, hear him laugh, help me with my computer
18 Months ago, How could it be 18 months when it seems like yesterday....How can it
be possible that my life was put on hold 18 months ago....How can it be that each
minute, each hour for 18 months I have missed my son so much....How can it be that
if this is how it feel this bad at 18 months....that in 36 weeks ....that 48 weeks....
and on and on....the hours...the days...the weeks....THE PAIN.....How I miss you my
son.....how I wish to just be with you again....just to have a talk....just to hear "I
Love you.....It's this simple....if death is simple..........I MISS YOU MORE THAN I EVER
DID....I LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS I EVER DID.....MY PAIN IS AS DEEP AS IT EVER WAS..
EIGHTEEN MONTHS AND I AM JUST AS WEEPY AND SAD AS I WAS EIGHTEEN
MONTHS AGO.....This has been the most difficult, longest journey I have ever
Traveled.....and it will be until the day we see each other again.....I hope you
know, I hope you can feel my love for you is everlasting.....MISSING YOU KEN...
MY SON, MY BABY, MY FRIEND.....I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH....
One day at a time is all I can do....I will still cry....I will always be sad....I will
always miss you forever.....I would give anything if this has never happened
I would give anything to have taken you place...This just seems so unreal to
me that you should be gone before me....We should have had so many years
together, to share, to laugh, to talk, to grow old together....that is what we
should have had.....I love you my son....yesterday, today and forever......
Forever your mom, Forever your my son....I love you,,,,mom
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Gentle hugs as we walk together on this difficult journey. Love, Linda
So much understanding.... Like others my first and second years were the worse. Year three began a turning point that I both realized and yet didnt\' realize. It\'s now been 4 1/2 years since Kala\'s accident and most all of the meltdowns have ceased. Not the missing her...but the meltdowns. I\'ve always looked to Pat for hope of my own survival. She was the first \"seasoned\" mom I met here. I clung to her for hope and it helped me. Now, I pray, that somehow I can offer hope as I feel I have become a \"seasoned\" mom myself. Keep writing, keep sharing, keep talking to Ken, and keep believing he is OK...better than OK...because truly he is. And believe in your ability to be OK...and one day even better than OK. Love you my friend~~Teri.
\"Forever and ever my baby you\'ll be.\" Doesn\'t the book go like that? I agree, time is meaningless when it comes to love. Your love is a beautiful thing and I am glad it is absolutely intact.
All TLC, flowing your way in this safe and warm circle,
Sarah