wednsday night?

well, went to n hme yesterday with dn. we enfolled his mom and now he has o tell her she isnt coming home. was out all day yesterday. it was good to get out but very deppressing. i couldnt get on here last night. so im on here for a while tonight. feeling very shy tomight, even on here. feel very dick today. did go out but it was to by moore food. have dbt n counseling tommorow. have to drive myself. hope i can do it and get there on time. i hate driving. they just go way too fast. but i left the house yesterday and today, thats something. if i go tommorow that will be 3 days in a row. that is a milestone for me. if i do go out tommorow then i can udate my goal. leaveing the house moore. going to try to get to sleep early tonight. im allready thinking up excuses, but i HAVE nto go since i cancelled the last three weeks. it will be a good thing. got my fingers crossed...