Wednesday, February 10, 2016
It's been a while here... I wish I had more time for me. I am gentle with myself, I'm happy to say. I can only do so much. When I get home from work, cook dinner, I'm exhausted after that. I was asleep by 8 pm last night. I haven't been journaling, reading or meditating. I must institute and commit to some sort of daily practice even if only for 10 minutes. It's that thinking that when everything calms down and everything is stable, I'll have time. It's the opposite. I'll get there. At least I'm not drinking . Monday is 60 days. I'm so glad to be out from those chains and I have this default it seems in my brain. It's awesome. When I think I want/need A drink, I just as quickly think to myself that's not gonna help a thing. I've mentioned that thinking before on here several times. im so grateful for this default switch at this point in time. I am happy to say that my son is now working and has a little apartment that he is staying in. He will be learning some new skills and will be learning what it's like to be out on his own. He is excited and this could be the making of him. Work has been extremely busy and very stressful. I have an international case that has been all-consuming . School vacation is next week and I have three days off in the beginning of the week. I cannot wait . A well deserved rest. I want to give a shout out to mags, Nikki, Jen, and Gaye; my besties. My sisters who love and support me no matter what. I'm not exactly up-to-date on what is going on with you all. But you are in my heart and thoughts daily . Your friendship and support and love means the world to me. I'll catch up on you all, I promise. Peace and love to all .
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Love you Graciepie and am so happy you checked in. I think that\'s wonderful your son is out on his own; he will definitely be forced to learn new skills. I can relate to how you feel about being exhausted at the end of the day as well, and thinking I\'ll start something when the circumstances are perfect or when I\'m not so tired. There\'s never a right time, I guess. Sometimes you just gotta throw away your to do list and go to bed early! I am an early sleeper and an early riser. Coincidentally, so is my daughter. Don\'t worry about catching up we me. You are to never be under any pressure. I\'m very boring anyway. I\'m actually not a very good friend at all cause I have no social grace and can be quite clueless and come off as selfish cause I\'m so introverted. What are you studying in school? I didn\'t know you were in school too. Shit, full load! That\'s cool you speak some Japanese. I only speak Japanese when I go back to Japan. I don\'t have a lot of Japanese friends here yet. Have a beautiful day. Love love love
That is really great news about your son. I am happy for him. I know he has got to feel good about being in his own place.
I\'m so happy for you too. Reaching 60 days with all the stress you have had to deal with. You are being such a great role model to both your son and daughter. You are an amazing woman!!
Awww thanks guys, thanks for the love and support. No Nik, I am talking about my daughters school vacation next week. LOL I\'m psyched that I took three vacation days in the beginning of the week so we can have some fun. School? No f\'ing way and I only speak one word of Japanese. love you guys. Xo
Hi sweetie. I\'m so so proud of you! you\'re approaching 60 days and that\'s such a huge accomplishment. Gosh I\'m proud of you. I wish you had more time for \' you \'too. Please try to make some, even if it\'s just those 10 minutes to \'breathe\'.. ya know? Ofcourse I ditto what my other \' lil cub\'s said. ( and yes, you are one of my \' lil cub\'s.. when you get your behind in the whatsapp den you\'ll get that.. I\'m y\'alls mama bear ). That is really great news about your son and I\'m happy for him too.
Hey, amazing you.. I am behind on DS so I apologize.. don\'t you apologize! and don\'t listen to above mentioned lil\' cub Nik not being a good friend. Hogwash...... I don\'t ever want to hear you or any of my girls apologizing..
Take good care of YOU GP.. that\'s important, you know it is. Get some well deserved rest and ALWAYS, ALWAYS be kind to yourself. You are amazing . Love you! xoxo
No worries, my awesome-ass-kicking-MOFO. I totally GET busy and exhausted and you don\'t have to apologize for not keeping up with me. My life is pretty boring so there isn\'t much to keep up with....lol.
Glad things are going well for you and that you are going to get some well-deserved time off.
I have my own default, as well. I can\'t handle the feeling of being hung over anymore (getting too damned OLD for that shit!!) so I tell myself how crummy I\'ll feel every time I want a drink and it works for me. Funny how such simple thoughts can get us through the cravings:)) YAY!
LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU, sista!!!
xoxox