We learn from each relationship we are in or out of.

I believe that we learn from each relationship, whether you are in it now or the ones from the past.  I was married to Gary for 16 1/2 years and had one daughter named Lisa.  It was horrible.  The only way I survived was thru my faith in God and Jesus Christ.  My pastor said he could not believe how long I stayed in it.  I was shocked by what he said.  Eventually, I did leave.  I had to leave Lisa with Gary as I wasn't working at the time.  Lisa was 13 and chose to stay with her dad.  I did get a job and got my life together again but it was difficult.  I learned from this relationship.  I grew and matured because of it.  I would not want to repeat it again but I took things from it.  It prepared me for my next relationship with Smokey.  We were together for ten years when he died on Nov.15, 2009.  I learned from this relationship as well.  It prepared me for the next current relationship I am with Dave.  We have been dating for 7 weeks now.  I don't know where it is headed but I will learn from this relationship as well and take it into my next relationship, if there is a next relationship.  I am 54 years of age.  I hope this is my last relationship.  One never knows when you are dating.  Dave is only 47 years of age but what a sweet, gentle and wonderfully surprising man he has turned out to be.  I made a list of his 53 good points and 6 bad points.  It's not bad at all.  If someone made a list for me with 53 good points and 7 bad points, i would be happy.  I let Dave read the list.  Why not?  He didn't say too much.  It's okay.  We are our own individuals and not joined at the hips. 
It is taking forever for me to get the Letters of Administration but I think it is slowly coming to an end.  I have to get the bank draft from the bank to pay the probate fees and give it to my lawyer.  I think this is the last leg in the race to get the Letters of Administration as Smokey died without a will.  GET YOUR WILLS MADE.  It sucks having to jump through all these hoops to settle Smokey's estate.  It took this long because we have not been able to locate his 2 estranged daughters.  The lawyer has worked around this, which is why it has taken so long.
I was trying to reach my daughter for the last 2 weeks.  I finally got hold of her yesterday.  Apparently she was in Edmonton for 2 weeks with Tyson.  I was so worried about her.  If she told me that she was going to Edmonton, I forgot.  We are going to get together on Monday.  This makes me happy now. 
There was something else on my mind but for the life of me I can't figure out what that was so I am going to say good-bye for now and hope each of you has a wonderful day today or at least a good day.  From Diane Baillie