We can try this...

For years, all the doctors I have seen have suggested journaling.  I'm no good at keeping up with anything and I have the memory of a gnat, or it seems that way.  There is just so many thoughts running through my head at all times.   They just race at all times.  Maybe that is why I can't remember anything.   It's 1 am and I've been awake since 6 am.  Just not sleepy.  I'm key'd.   I wanna go somewhere but know I can't.  There is no where to go. I don't have the money to go anywhere.  Hand hurts again.  No idea why.   Sometimes the hand will hurt for no reason.   I'm restless.  I hate this.   I know I should sleep and try to get to a normal 'routine'.  That's something else the doctors have always suggested.  But how do you make yourself sleep if you're not sleepy.