Waiting for treatment

Hey guys!
So I have decided that I really need inpatient treatment. My anorexia is only getting worse, and my doctors are getting really worried about my health. This is the second month in a row that I haven't had my period. My body is shutting down. But even though I have decided that I need inpatient treatment, I am still waiting for my insurance to approve my going. Hopefully I will be able to go to the Center for Change in Orem, Utah, but as of now, I am unsure as to where they will send me. It's really hard to wait for treatment. I have doctors appointments seven days a week making sure that my body isn't taking a turn for the worse while we wait for the insurance to decide what they will pay for. It's very frustrating.
This anorexia has cost me so much... I dropped out of my summer classes, quit my internship, and now, I can't drive all because of this disease. I just have to make sure that my illness doesn't take my life.
I was stumbling online earlier today and I found the following video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cf9tdW6jf7c . It really spoke to me on how self destructive behaviors, including cutting and eating disorders affect those around us. It's pretty hard to really come to terms with. And it makes me realize how much I really do need treatment.
~Tracie