Waiting for May

It is Tuesday and my next attempt at journal writing. Luckily it rained last night, so I stayed at home instead of going to the meeting. The CODA meetings here have lost their attraction The administrations of several of them have wanderred far from the twelve Traditions seeking often what is good for the administration "Conciounce of the group" they prefer to call themselves. But they don't often have the group foremost in mind. Kind of like administrations that run enterprises. Where I live the CODA groups have created an affiliation with Dr Terrence Gorski and his Conference deliverred to alcoholics, according to the founder of CODA in this province, as oppossed to codependants. Thus the NON DAA/CODA comnference is indeed a non CODA conference which DAA decided to accept as DAA approved literature despite it not meeting the demands of Tradition SIX. In the conference Gorski makes a suggestion that codependants(?) are to take advantage of others by getting into short term relationshuips with others while letting the others believe the relationships are LONGterm for the sole purpose being to break them. This hinted strongly at emotional/psychological abuse and I have quit all my volunteering as a concequence, fearing I might be guilty of aiding and abetting the abovementionned forms of psychological/emotional abuse by nature of my volunteering and be accused of such illegal offences. I showed the offending declarations to an on duty police officer who mentionned that I ought to be in the clear of any such charges. The administration did not want to discuss this, preferring to "keep things simple" as their slogan states. But breaking the law doesn't render anything simple to me. So if they were not interested or fearful of the concequences of violating Tradition SIX, I decided to go to the police and others to get info as to how illegal the content was. I'm therefore contemplating pulling out of the 12 STEP movement which I now view as a cult based on administration saying "Don't do as we do. Do as we say" And don't trouble them with anything complicated.  I now have options to consider. Other organisations that can help me better now that I'm more involved with my Higher Power. 
      As for the rest all is going good. Once I get to the month of May I get my pass to go towards Montreal where life will be more interesting, And support group in question.  As for the moment I'm at the library where I access the internet and am in heaven. Thanks for reading.