Waiting for church to start

I got to St.Max's early. I'm waiting outside to go in a few minutes from now.

Referencing the feeling of sadness that I've had today it was inspired through the sense of 3rd person vantage on my life and just the general 

gloom about things. It's like I was understanding what I could do for myself but then also seeing the lacking. I am very grateful but I've also realized that my habit at these times in my life when I haven't appreciated my life I've tended to banish the thought instinctively. Well now that I'm here again, so to speak, in a more lucid sense,  I'm recognizing that I have to find different things in my life to make me feel good about myself. I'm not a perfect person and I will find things eventually that I can feel better about me and my life. Aspects of my life will be what they are, but it's not all of it!

peace, and have a good night!