Volunteering
I finally went into to volunteering today. I was doing an audit of the clinic, calling people and making fake appointments It wasn't too bad and I'm glad I went. Just to get out of the house. Geo and I had a good day, no arguments or anything. I'm still going to talk to my therapist about what to do with how Geo treats me. I might be able to go to my sister's if I pay rent and helped with the food budget. I know he treats me bad but he's not like that all the time. I think I'm going to have to really think it through. I love him with all of my heart and I don't want to lose him. He has helped me so much. I'm more stable now, and I have been out of the hospital for 3 and a half years. That's a huge accomplishment for me, since I was in and out of the hospital for many years. I've lost count of how many times I've been in. I know I need to be treated better but I don't want to see the truth.
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the last sentence says it all, don\'t want to see the truth. how hard that is to face and work on but so needed to do. one cant get better without dealing with all the issues inside of us, we can give up because it hurts or is to hard but I don\'t think you want that. great on volunterring, I think you should keep that up when nyou can. kudo on no hospital, think how far you have come when tose bad days arrive!! hugsss
You are thinking about it so that\'s a step in the right direction. when you are ready all will become clear.
hope it works out with you two, especially if its kept you out of the hospital for over 3 years. perhaps just working a lot and avoiding each other or getting a bigger place where you both have your own bedrooms may help? relationships are always tricky. xxoo
Geo has his office which is his space and I have the bedroom. I can\'t fall asleep if he is mad at me, so I make sure to resolve issues before I go to sleep. This way when he comes in to go to bed I\'m not fuming and being unable to sleep. He doesn\'t get mad for long so that works well for us.