Urges - -still!!

It's interesting - you wouldn't think I would still have urges to go to the casino - or illusions that I can control myself... I was talking to my brother and he used to have a problem with alcohol but would never really discuss it... he really opened up and is dealing well with his addiction at this time.  I was speaking candidly about how I feel the urges still and wish I could gamble  without severe repercussions (sp?) - however of course I know I can't.  Anyway, he was talking about how when he wants to drink and has those powerful urges he switches his mind to something else; reiterating to himself that it is bad for him, etc.  He has a new girlfriend and I believe she has had a very positive influence on him.... when he was here, he was drinking iced tea and diet coke, which I was really shocked at... I'm very happy for him and I know it is difficult... we really compared notes on the urges and I believe our conversations will bring us closer.  Each of us three siblings have some sort of addictions but never really discussed them.. the brothers live on the east coast and I'm on the west. Okay - so I'm rambling on.  After our conversation, I was okay with not acting on the urges.. he was so sweet and said I could call him any time... I may take him up on it.  It's amazing how different we are, though - he can walk through a casino without ever placing a bet!!!!  We were cursed with different addictions. :]  Bad word - cursed.. it's just who we are and a process of our personal evolution in this life time.  Whew - now I'm getting philosophical. Time to sign off,Hugs to all,Smokeygirl