upset and venting.

I've been having a lot of bad dreams.. Feels like I'm getting worse again.. I am trying to just relax and not let everything get to me.. It's just really hard.. I feel so angry and sad.. I just hate everything right now.. I hate My mom for saying and doing all of the things she has.. I hate my sister for being such a judgemental, hypocritical bitch, especially lately... I hate my dad for  being such an asshole and being willing to screw over everyone including his kids for my mom, who treats him and us like total crap.. I hate all of the friends that claimed to care and then just disappeared... I hate the people who claimed to care and love me soo much and then broke my heart, abused me, treated me like crap and broke me... I hate the rest of my family for acting like they care sooo much and they are such perfect people because they are christians. When in reality they only lie, cheat, steal and backstab... And the ONLY time they ever even contact me is to tell me to tell my mom something or to bitch me out for something I shared on facebook.. -.- I hate my brother for being my hero for soo long and then abusing me and then shutting me out.. Now he is just an asshole to me and couldn't care less.. I just hate EVERYTHING and EVERYONE... And it sucks.. I did soo good for so long.. I did soo good at trying not to hate people.. Overall, I got over a LOT of things pretty wuickly and let go.. And now.. It's like it's all hitting me at once.. And I just hate it all... Most of all, I hate everyone who I reached out to for help.. Mainly family.. And they just pretty much ignored it.. Try to act like nothing ever happened.. Tell me to get over it and to just "stop being anxious or depressed" Like that will suddenly make it all better... And then they have the nerve to question why I get short tempered or upset..? I really wish I had the guts to leave.. I wish My truck was running, I'd donate plasma as often as I could and save up til I could leave... Idk where I'd go, but anywhere would be better than here... I'm just done... I'm done being treated like shit and having people say soo much shit about me and then when I finally get mad and say something I'M the bad guy for being so mean to someone who is never anything but nice.. My sister is probably the worst.. She is a BITCH to me.. And when I make a joke, not even trying to be rude suddenly I am the terrible person... UGH... I'm just so tired of living here and dealing with these people.. I want out... And I don't have many options for getting out.....