update to this morning's entry...
Yep, he did it. It's been 3 months 6 days. He sent me a text msg (he didn't have a cell phone before today) and this is what he says:
Him--hey
Him--are you there
Me I respond when I see it about 30 min later---Who's this? ( I recognized the area code but not the number)
He responds back asap --Douchbag do u want to talk?
Me---I'm nervous, stomach gets in knots and I'm starting to feel sick. I don't reply.
Him--I got a cell phone today for clinicals
Me--still don't reply....
Him--so u still can't talk to me... not evem a y or n (yes it's evem)
Me----still don't reply.
He calls a few minutes later, I ignore. It goes to voice mail and no I haven't listened to it. That was 6 hours ago now. I am tempted to listen but not enough to really listen to it. Now the funny part is about this if you haven't already seen my journal. I put it all out there this morning. Almost everything I can think of that I've gone thru with him in the 9 year relationship. This morning!!!!!!!!!! I was at the Hard Rock Casino in Tulsa when he sent me those msgs and called and I wasn't about to let that douchbag ruin my time (even tho I was alone) less than 30 minutes later I hit a 1k jackpot. Having a blast I ended up staying til almost 8 pm from 3:45 when he first started texting me and on my way out the door I hit another jackpot. I walked away today with over 2k in money I didn't have. I'm giving myself a pat on the back and I am taking in consideration of my winnings as the Higher Power telling me I'm doing the right thing. I am being kind of ridiculous I know but I am flying high at the moment. I may respond sometime and ask him not to contact me anymore. Or I thought about handing my cell phone to some random guy and having him call and say he's got the wrong number and that he just got this phone a few weeks ago. I don't want to have anything to do with him at this junction. I wanted to share my funny story with you guys. Thanks for the encouragement from this mornings journal. Right now I'm alright, give me a few days and I may be sliding down hill again. :)
Him--hey
Him--are you there
Me I respond when I see it about 30 min later---Who's this? ( I recognized the area code but not the number)
He responds back asap --Douchbag do u want to talk?
Me---I'm nervous, stomach gets in knots and I'm starting to feel sick. I don't reply.
Him--I got a cell phone today for clinicals
Me--still don't reply....
Him--so u still can't talk to me... not evem a y or n (yes it's evem)
Me----still don't reply.
He calls a few minutes later, I ignore. It goes to voice mail and no I haven't listened to it. That was 6 hours ago now. I am tempted to listen but not enough to really listen to it. Now the funny part is about this if you haven't already seen my journal. I put it all out there this morning. Almost everything I can think of that I've gone thru with him in the 9 year relationship. This morning!!!!!!!!!! I was at the Hard Rock Casino in Tulsa when he sent me those msgs and called and I wasn't about to let that douchbag ruin my time (even tho I was alone) less than 30 minutes later I hit a 1k jackpot. Having a blast I ended up staying til almost 8 pm from 3:45 when he first started texting me and on my way out the door I hit another jackpot. I walked away today with over 2k in money I didn't have. I'm giving myself a pat on the back and I am taking in consideration of my winnings as the Higher Power telling me I'm doing the right thing. I am being kind of ridiculous I know but I am flying high at the moment. I may respond sometime and ask him not to contact me anymore. Or I thought about handing my cell phone to some random guy and having him call and say he's got the wrong number and that he just got this phone a few weeks ago. I don't want to have anything to do with him at this junction. I wanted to share my funny story with you guys. Thanks for the encouragement from this mornings journal. Right now I'm alright, give me a few days and I may be sliding down hill again. :)
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WOW I am so proud of you.... that was awesome... I hope I can find the same strenght if he ever contacts me.....
You are doing great... you go girl!!!!!!!!
Thanks Losthope!! I still feel pretty good about it. I deleted his text msgs yesterday and just keep on trucking. I didn\'t delete the voicemail he left but I have no urgency to listen to it. One of my GF wants to listen to it so I made it so that it\'s not bothering me as a new notification and will delete it after she\'s done. I deserve more than his bs at this time and if he wanted to salvage anything than the effort should have been noticeable b4 now. Thanks for reading!
Great job on ignoring him! That takes real strength, believe me I know how hard it is. But it gets heaps easier.
And congrats on the winnings! :-)