update on me and the world

So much love, so much loss. I am staggering around trying to cope with the woe. I definitely got too tired last week and I knew I was falling apart and it was actually about Betsy (and Andy) when every sad thing on earth started to put me over the edge. There was a dog rescued in NYC almost starved and frozen to death (google Patrick Miracle dog) and I wept many hot sliding tears for the sadness and the badness of our world. The beautiful parts, in fact the beautiful people who rescued the dog, and my wonderful family who is holding each other so tightly in love and grief, are what keep us all going. 
My mother was worried that I would have people leaning on me for support during Betsy's medical journey. I told her that I am glad to help... it's like the reason for living. If we can make a little difference to each other in this sad world, we really have to. Doesn't mean I don't get into bed that night and frazzle my poor beloved man with inconsolable weeping. I miss Andy and I ache for everyone who misses their beloved kid and everyone who faces down cancer and all the innocent kids and dogs and cats everywhere in pain. People looking for lost beloveds, still, in Japan.
Thinking. Kwan Yin: She who hears the cries of the world. When our hearts are broken, we do feel it all. Was it Leonard Cohen who said something about the cracks in our hearts... where the light comes in. That's a positive thought to end on...