Update

I haven't spent real time here in years. I was remembering today how helpful it was at one time, a long time ago, when I had friends to interact with and share with and listen to.  So much has changed since then. My children are grown. At that time I was just starting my menopause, which seems to be almost over. My husband and I are less in trouble than we were then, so there has been some progress, but still much to learn and fix. Still, we stayed, we never got divorced.

I gained more weight from being self-isolated and sedentary. I am changing my habits to hopefully live longer to see grandchildren of which there are none yet. I started going to church again, oddly the church from my childhood where I said I would never return. I think God led me back there because it's been so helpful and things fall into place much like a puzzle. Some of my mother's generation are still there. Many are widows. A few older than that even are there, in fact our largest part of the memberships is 60-90+. Yes, 90+, some very healthy people there. I have joined a couple of Bible study groups and helped out in the kitchen. Sometimes I don't show up because I am still dealing with my social anxiety. But if I miss a week, I tend to be there the following week. Definite progress.

That's all I want to write right now but I will journal the rest later, especially about my children.