Update

I haven't been on here for ages, don't know why but leaving off the antidepressants helped, for me.

Update

Divorce was granted and I am now divorced - still so painful to say!

Have had virtually no contact from ex-wife, few messages about practical things to sort, but I asked her to send me things and she hasn't. 

Missing children so much - like a constant pain!

Have made a few friends on Twitter

Over 50 job applications and nothing

Mum still feels very difficult, dementia is apparent, plus her frustration at herself and therefore at me.

I dream of a fresh start - job, moving from here, seeing the children