up so early sat oct 24,2010

well, here i am 9 a.m. on sunday. allways get up early sometimes. had bad night, was up alot to change shirts, a/c, etc... just another night in menapause hell. i feel so alone in this thing. havnt sen my family in a while. going to realy try to get out tonight. supposed to rain sometime  today. we will see.son still gone so i thought i would get on here now. its like i couldnt wait to get on here.im realy glad that i do9nt have a computer of my own. i would never get anything done. worse than now. dont get anything done allready, but it would be worse if i had this all the time. i just know it. i know lots of people who are on allmost all the time, like son, and other son.they feel abourt the computer like i feel about my tv, so i know it would be double bad. i get so cought up in everything, i go way over board. im all or nothing. i should be in shower,but im on here instead. oh well, my favorite saying. ok, moore later....