UP/DOWN, UP/DOWN......

Sun. Eve: I am reallllllly getting tired of this....I just have that "empty gut" feeling all the time!  I guess with Mellisa's passing, Scott's angel date, and now the 4th of July, I am just having a hard time!  Scott loved the 4th!  It was always a big deal in our home.And tonight we cooked with charcoal...we usually use the gas grill.  Anyway, it reminded me of camping which also reminded me of Scott.  Plus, I have been looking up campgrounds for our vacation.  We were, as some may recall, going on a big journey to Colorada, AZ, NM, UT, etc.  Now, we are going to the other side of the state, or so, in our 5th wheel.  At least that is the plan today.  My friend came in from KC but only stayed one night.  I was a little disappointed but on the other hand, I was ok with it.  I am just so fickle these days!  Melissa's Mom brought me 2 kittens yesterday.  One was Melissa's, a grey/white.  The other is black/white.  We got rid of one of our white one's and are trying to get rid of the other.  Those white cats are CRAZY!!!!  Really.  Hopefully these will be much better.  My autistic "picnic student" apparently has been asking his mom everyday about a picnic.  She said she is sure he is relating it to me.  So, I will find a day this week and take him again.  I want to take him fishing, too.  Now that will be a HOOT!  I know so many of my DS friends are having a really hard time right now.  I am trying very hard to pull myself back up so that I can be there.  Thanks to all of you for being so loving and patient.  Peaceful wishes to all.