Up/Down/All Around

Hi there! Uh, not so sure where to start. I've been combing the net for a support group i like and this might be it. um, i'm 20. i was diagnosed in October with bipolar disorder type III. whoohooo. no big surprise; i sorta always knew. my mum is a nurse and she had medical books all over the place. i was reading this medical mag about a bipolar guy and he sounded so much like me it was scary. i think i was 16. at the time i was cutting, experiencing bouts of ups and downs, constantly thinking about dying, hearing voices, seeing things, paranoid, the list goes on. i basically ignored it til i got to uni and my cutting started getting worse. my bf threatened to tell my mum if i didn't get help so i did and viola! cyclothymia. i don't think he's accepted my diagnosis. he's worried that i'm hiding behind it esp. since all I've done since being diagnosed is read about the disorder and watch movies/documentaries about it. i just wanna get to understand it, not be obsessed. i guess that's all for now. i really should be sleeping but you know how it is. bluh.