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I am a little down,since not getting e-mails, no one is communicating , feeling down about my Daughter I miss her so much, I have been trying to stay positive, I just see other people moving on but ,I know she gone I feel this hole so big in me and i can not fill it .When she passed her daughter was ready to have a baby she never got to see her grand baby now she has 3, it hurts when i see them they call me grandma and they will never know what a loving wonderful person she was. My mother died young at 42 i was 12, she did get to see my sister's baby girl,she died of cancer and know she was going to die,she bought me and my little sister a graduation and wedding gift,my little sister was 5, because she know she would not be there, i ended up with the same cancer but they got it in time , When my husband died i was ready to have my 3 baby, when i had her she only lived a short time ,I buried her at my husband feet. My life has been full of death and sickness, and believe me I try to see the glass half full, but its hard. I guess being alone today has taken me down. And i am thinking to much. WEll I will have to pray harder to get me through, again life goes on.