Up date

Have not wrote much lately. Things have been stressfull,and I do not know why I wake up sick every day and fight through it.This time of year is always hard,and being so alone does not help. I have seen my grand children this week,that always helps,I have 12,from 2 to 28. Every body life is busy and I understand they can not come around much, but family and friends are important,and my only friends are here.The sun is shining a little cool. Wish I could get out and enjoy it. My anxiety is up and makes it hard to enjoy life. Doctors do not seem to care just want to hand you pills. My preacher canceled our counceling for to day I needed that. I have mu regular one next week ,wish i felt better,but I will push through with gods help. Till next time.