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I am a little down,since not getting e-mails, no one is communicating , feeling down about my Daughter I miss her so much, I have been trying to stay positive, I just see other people moving on but ,I know she gone I feel this hole so big in me and i can not fill it .When she passed her daughter was ready to have a baby she never got to see her grand baby now she has 3, it hurts when i see them they call me grandma and they will never know what a loving wonderful person she was. My mother died young at 42 i was 12, she did get to see my sister's baby girl,she died of cancer and know she was going to die,she bought me and my little sister a graduation and wedding gift,my little sister was 5, because she know she would not be there, i ended up with the same cancer but they got it in time , When my husband died i was ready to have my 3 baby, when i had her she only lived a short time ,I buried her at my husband feet. My life has been full of death and sickness, and believe me I try to see the glass half full, but its hard. I guess being alone today has taken me down. And i am thinking to much. WEll I will have to pray harder to get me through, again life goes on.
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When we are overwhelmed with our losses and pain we become very introspective in our attempt to find comfort and healing. It appears you are working on finding comfort and healing and this, even though incredibly difficult and painful, is what we must do to hang on and survive to find a better quality life.
I know for me it is the sharing and venting that is allowing me to survive - one small step at a time.
Sharing gentle ((hugs)) of comfort with you.
:-) Patricia
I, too am having a rough day today. In fact, the tears haven\'t stopped for the past 2 hours. I miss my son so much. Do you have an online memorial for your daughter? Just wondering, because I have one for my son and just finished journaling there. It\'s a bit therapeutic. You\'ve experienced a lot of heartache in your life, hun. I wish there were words to help comfort you, but I know it\'s just something we have to go through. I pray this day passes as gently as possible or you. *Hug* ~Adrianne
I wish I could help. I wish I had words, but today is hard, another holiday Morgan loved and she isn\'t here,,, I am sad, too... wishing things were different for all of us.... Nora
oh shirley how is it possible for one person to have to endure so much heartache its so cruel and does make you question faith in god i hope all will be clear one day. but for now cherish the memories you have and thank god they came into your life though so short. you are an inspiration al woman despite all your grief and pain and i wish i could take it all away from you, but all i can do is be here for you not a day goes by that your not in my thoughts my dear friend, i care and love you like a sister i wish i could be with you on days like these, god bless your heart, susan
My precious friend, My heartaches for you.. I wish we lived next door, I could go on and on so to keep it simple i could not have said it better than susie please rer read what she said again. I love you and am always here for you . you jjust call out and ill be there to pray with you , listen.etc.....love your lil sis leslie
shirley , so many losses .. i\'m so sorry for all your pain .. u are incredibly strong . your faith is inspiring . please know that my shoulder is here for u ..............may god help u find comfort from your storm . your friends are blessed to have u in their lives...on this day and always u are in my prayers .
Hi Shirley about your losses, I can understand how painful it must be for you. I lost my father almost 6 years ago. So I really understand, if you need someone to chat to, please feel free to message me and I will be there to listen. Hugs xxx
Sorry about your losses Shirley
Hi Shirley; Sorry I haven\'t written you sooner; I have been thinking of you often and Praying..I read your journal and it reminded me of all my losses in my life.I know exactly how you feel ...You have Faith ; Now we have to build on that faith to get it stronger :) God is going to get you through this; and he uses others to help ^ Would you like me to have a personal bible study with you ? Shirley I want you feeling better . That joy and hope is just weighted down with so much heartache.. We just have to gently uncover the wounds and replace it with refreshing ,loving words and Promises that only our heavenly Father can give us. Please let me help you..Shirley :) I am going through a difficult time right now my Dad is dying so we can encourage and help each other .. Love and Hugs Linda
Dear Shirley, I am understandiing so many of your feelings.. lately I have been almost consumed by the thoughts that when Jenn\'s children have their own babies those precious children won\'t know what a wonderful grandma she would have been and how much she was looking forward to the day of bouncding them on her knee...brings tears to me now...
Hugs, MaryLou
It breaks my heart that Alex\'s daughter will never know him...he will just be \"her daddy\" in heaven. She is missing all the specialness of him...tough, hard, and sad. Love to you...and hopefully DS will be fixed...Karen