UNUSUAL

June 11, 2009:  Okay..today (Sat.), was not a horrible day.  I actually found myself being tired of being at home!  I have not really gone out of Willard, a VERY small town, since the third of July.  Craig and I went to Lowe's, the Dollar Tree (where everything is one dollar), and CiCi's for the pizza buffet. We also went to Staples...I could not believe their prices on ink and paper!!!!!  This was all a shock to me!  Mostly I am glad to be at home....my "safe" place!  Today, I wanted to be somewhere else!  I even initiated it!  SHOCK!  It was good.  Really. Craig and I NEVER see things in the same way...I think it is a left brain/right brain thingl.  And, again, today, we still didn't.  But, it  was kind of fun to look at/for things just because.  We didn't find all the things we were looking for, at Lowe's.  We did make one purchase, however.  It was a floor diffuser....a vent cover...etc.   The one, in our main bathroom was so NASTY!  It was rusted beyond belief!  I guess, after twenty years, and three sons splashing water out of the tub, it had just  done it's time.  I had to lift the old one out with a screwdriver and the claw end of a hammer!YUCK!   I know I was in that bathroom one day and was looking at it.  I thought, "I really need to get a new cover!"  Then, another day, I was at a friend's, looking at their vent.  I saw she had spray painted hers,.  I looked all over the house thinking I woudd find another vent cover that would work.  It did not happen!   So, I bought this new one.  Such a small thing....  And yet, in my world, NOTHING is small! Every single thing I do takes a CRAZY amount of effort.  Who would've ever thought replacing a vent cover would be a BIG thing??!?!?!? 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

What a great entry this will hit home for so many.the small things can seem so overwhelming and even confusing in this new life.you did good!hugs for a gentle day and prayers.
KimRW
KimRW

That was a big step and you are doing great!! You got me thinking about my vent cover in my bathroom now...it does need replacing....lol. Wishing you another good day today. Hugs, Kim
biowoman
biowoman

I love a feeling of accomplishment!! Good for you I KNOW how it feels to do those things...even if it is a little thing! Love to you...Karen
rcoco
rcoco

Sometimes the little things seem enormous, for the enormity of what we endure changes all perspective. I have the best intentions every evening, you know that whole \"tomorrow\" thing, and then just brushing my teeth seems huge. We will perservere, we just have to be easy on ourselves and allow the inertia to work its\' way out. A vent cover is a good place to start! hugs
deleted_user
deleted_user

I agree - little things can seem so overwhelming sometimes. We just have to try to put it in perspective. Hugs, Julia
deleted_user
deleted_user

Congratulations on wanting to go out. That is a big step. Even small things count as big one in the world we live in. You did good, girl. Love and hugs Cathy