Uneventful last two weeks

Hey guys sorry I havnt been on for two weeks I been busy.  Lets see where to start Oh where do I start hhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!! oh On may 18 three days after i finished the semester I went out with friends and went shopping then three days later got into another fucking fight with my mom over nonsense.  I stayed away from the knife because I wanna stop every time i pick it up I start shaking so i stayed away from it. its been one week and no self injuring with knife yay me.  I bit myself though until I severely bruised myself If I dont cut Ill bite my self until I bruise.  Then I hide it.  I dont want my man to find out though Im scared of what hell think of me.  My cousin brielle bites herself also until she bruises i guess its hereditary problem.  The strange thing is she only bites her right arm and I only bite my left arm and if its too bruised then we switch.  My dad does it too some of my aunts does it a couple are in psycho wards for it i dont want to end up there. Three of my uncles well they cut themselves to no avail until they ended up in psycho wards.  some of my cousins does it and ITS FUCKING SICK.  I want to end this problem and I WANT TO FUCKING END IT NOW!!!  Last week I almost lost my man through texting.  I love him more than anything.  I got surgery tomorrow for my right ankle it collapsed.  Im scared I dont want to go through it cause Im gonna be alone.

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sasha5
sasha5

Im not suicidal I rather have physical pain than emotional pain