Uncharitable thoughts at 1am
SO this morning I was woken up at 1am. When I got back into bed I started thinking about my mother's group and thinking how smug they all were about how easy it was to conceive for them.
Out of 16, I am the only one who had any trouble. Heck, one of the mothers there as a result of a one night stand....only two weeks after she stopped taking the pill...its really hard for me to be friends with her.
Anyway, one girl is already pregnant with her second...like it was that easy and there has been much discussion about when everyone will have their second baby.
Like it is so fucking easy.
And I thought to myself...and I can say this here without any judgement..hopefully...(please know that in real life, minus the hormones, I am a reasonably nice person...not overly sweet and considerate but not likely to hurt your feelings straight up!) I thought: well I hope at least a few of them have some serious troubles this time around so they know what it is like.
Extremely uncharitable, I know. But it was 1am, I was in a dark place (note the humour there!).
Anyway, needed to share, still trying to remain positive but not so much as a tingly nipple here (which was actually a recurring symptom throughout my last pregnancy) so I am kinda losing hope.
6 days til beta...we are on "holiday" now til I go back to work Monday week. Time to try and relax and enjoy life a bit.
Out of 16, I am the only one who had any trouble. Heck, one of the mothers there as a result of a one night stand....only two weeks after she stopped taking the pill...its really hard for me to be friends with her.
Anyway, one girl is already pregnant with her second...like it was that easy and there has been much discussion about when everyone will have their second baby.
Like it is so fucking easy.
And I thought to myself...and I can say this here without any judgement..hopefully...(please know that in real life, minus the hormones, I am a reasonably nice person...not overly sweet and considerate but not likely to hurt your feelings straight up!) I thought: well I hope at least a few of them have some serious troubles this time around so they know what it is like.
Extremely uncharitable, I know. But it was 1am, I was in a dark place (note the humour there!).
Anyway, needed to share, still trying to remain positive but not so much as a tingly nipple here (which was actually a recurring symptom throughout my last pregnancy) so I am kinda losing hope.
6 days til beta...we are on "holiday" now til I go back to work Monday week. Time to try and relax and enjoy life a bit.
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Oh my god! I would have left that mom group long ago!! That makes my blood boil. Do they know about your struggle at all? I really hope not because that will make it ten times worse!! Drop those bitches.
I had moments like that when I lost our baby in 2007. those women aren\'t friends if they don\'t support you no matter how you feel. like BecMarie I\'d drop that group asap. I\'m with her when she says it makes my blood boil too.
The thing is, they are lovely...I have made some really good friends there. Yes they know about our IVF battles etc.I mean, these are the girls I ring when I feel like my head is going to explode from rage. They get me..some of them. I just think that they don\'t actually realise what it is like. Also, they think because I have had a baby that I must be \"cured\".