Uncertainty

My blood tests have revealed that I do have osteoarthritis. I don't understand how it doesn't always show up on x-rays unless I have been lied to. It's in all my joints but apparently doesn't show up in my shoulders x-ray. Strange! So, I have an official diagnosis for all the bone pain and have started with some medication that will hopefully help with the pain. This is just adding to my depression. I am uncertain of what's going to happen. It's already difficult to do my job and I know I have to talk to my boss to see if I can be accommodated at work. I find it so difficult as I am not much of a communicator when it comes to my own ailments, all I really want to do is break down, cry and go to sleep.