Ultrasound appointment.
I have an ultrasound appointment tomorrow, it is making me nervous. Medical tests always make me nervous, I am afraid they will find something, but I am also afraid that they will give me an all clear but they really missed something important. So even if the tests are clear I tend to not trust them and instead worry they may have missed something. I am worried that they will find some sort of cancer, which is my number one fear. I know I am rambling but sometimes venting takes the edge off of my nerves.
On a brighter note, I did enjoy my weekend away, I was anxious but I didn't let it take over and was actually able to sleep in one morning. God so blessed me.
I will write more tomorrow after my appointment and let you know how it went.
Well I had my ultrasound appointment today. Woke up with my stomach hurting, maybe when I sleep I am anxious. I drank a ton of water, got the boys ready for school then drop them off at my sister's house so she can drop them off at school because my appointment was when their school begins. Went to the radiology department and waited. Didn't wait to long, he did the abdominal scan first. I will admit to freaking out a little every time he paused and looked really hard at his screen. (The reason being last year when I had this scan done I ended up in emergency surgery a few hours later with a burst ectopic pregnancy when I didn't even know I was pregnant.) So needless to say I was more nervous then need be. Then he had me go to the restroom so he could do the trans-vaginal scan, when I walked to the bathroom I noticed he was on the hospital phone and that of course freaked me out because I was all "who is he calling, is it serious, does he need a second opinion.". Immediatly to the worst case scenario, which currently is ovarian cancer, because of my symptoms. But when I got back to the room he had another lap tech with him, because I guess he had to have a female present in the room, so I guess that's what the phone call was for? The rest of the ultrasound went fine as far as I can tell, but he didn't say anything, which I know they are not supposed to but I would have liked to know if everything was okay. He said that doctor should get the results by the end of the afternoon, I can only hope and pray she will call me tonight so I don't have to wait overnight. I am also praying that the scans showed everything was alright, everytime I get to a good place positivity wise in my head, I get nagging doubt that something really is wrong.
So now I am waiting, which I am not good at, but I need to leave this in God's hands, because no matter what it already is, and I just need to trust in him. If she calls back I will update.
On a brighter note, I did enjoy my weekend away, I was anxious but I didn't let it take over and was actually able to sleep in one morning. God so blessed me.
I will write more tomorrow after my appointment and let you know how it went.
Well I had my ultrasound appointment today. Woke up with my stomach hurting, maybe when I sleep I am anxious. I drank a ton of water, got the boys ready for school then drop them off at my sister's house so she can drop them off at school because my appointment was when their school begins. Went to the radiology department and waited. Didn't wait to long, he did the abdominal scan first. I will admit to freaking out a little every time he paused and looked really hard at his screen. (The reason being last year when I had this scan done I ended up in emergency surgery a few hours later with a burst ectopic pregnancy when I didn't even know I was pregnant.) So needless to say I was more nervous then need be. Then he had me go to the restroom so he could do the trans-vaginal scan, when I walked to the bathroom I noticed he was on the hospital phone and that of course freaked me out because I was all "who is he calling, is it serious, does he need a second opinion.". Immediatly to the worst case scenario, which currently is ovarian cancer, because of my symptoms. But when I got back to the room he had another lap tech with him, because I guess he had to have a female present in the room, so I guess that's what the phone call was for? The rest of the ultrasound went fine as far as I can tell, but he didn't say anything, which I know they are not supposed to but I would have liked to know if everything was okay. He said that doctor should get the results by the end of the afternoon, I can only hope and pray she will call me tonight so I don't have to wait overnight. I am also praying that the scans showed everything was alright, everytime I get to a good place positivity wise in my head, I get nagging doubt that something really is wrong.
So now I am waiting, which I am not good at, but I need to leave this in God's hands, because no matter what it already is, and I just need to trust in him. If she calls back I will update.
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