turmoil

I live each day simply because of certain beings depending on me. At this very moment i still cant say that they will be protected... those beings are my cats they are one of the very things i live for, and yet i cant protect them. im at my wits end because i may be losing them just because im such a cruddy person whom cant find a job for the life of her... i wish god would just give me a break... i simply just want to know my cats are safe...