trying to stay strong...

So this vacations aren't going as planned....they are not what i expected..I should be saying HAPPY CHRISTMAS vacations...but nooo this are just "happy" SHITTY Christmas vacations... ¬¬I've been mad everyday...my family is giving me a hard time...all the time they are telling me that they don't believe in me, they can't imagine me doing what i want...they don't even take me into account...I'M NOTHING!!!...i'm so worthless...I've been crying the whole morning...ugh..i hate being so vulnerable...well now i need to be a strong girl again and ignore the world...i'm an island i'm alone...if i've gotten out of worse things by myself why can't i get out of this...i just hope i can get out ok...u.u