trying to find some balance, some peace and some access to positive energy

I went to work this morning and came home and went about my routine of things.

I was very very pleasure seeking when I got home. Ate some candy - got another starbucks

sweet drink - I just felt like indulging. But I also kept about my chores and such

and that was good. I went and bought wrapping paper - and then wrapped

the chocolate bars I bought as Christmas presents.

All the while though, I noticed that this go go energy within me, which at one point

was 'about' seeking pleasure - was now fixated on negative aspects of my experience

and it was making my disposition thinking that these were active and REAL things

in my immediate experience. I so see how that energy - that go go energy if not

accessible or excercised - it can really turn in on myself or oneself and create darkness,

dark thoughts... So I am writing here - just to share about it - hopefully someone might

see this as something we have in common and take the 'ah ha' moment I am having

and use it for their own benefit. :)