trying to climb the mountain alone
When you suffer from depression because you are in emotional pain it at times can be easier to hide but when you are suffering from pain that others can't see and they don't understand it that leaves you feeling empty, not whole.
My life is not difficult just challenging. The pain has come back since the lumbar puncture and its worse than before. I am trying to just manage my life, my kids, my hubby. Some days are way harder than others. I don't know what to do, how to feel. I don't want to be angry but it has taken a long time for a diagnosis and who would have thought it would be such an extreme. I am starting to get double vision.....ugh.
But so many cannot walk where I walk and its such a rare disease....not many out there with it.
Keep climbing even if its alone.
I need to fight this war and win.
My life is not difficult just challenging. The pain has come back since the lumbar puncture and its worse than before. I am trying to just manage my life, my kids, my hubby. Some days are way harder than others. I don't know what to do, how to feel. I don't want to be angry but it has taken a long time for a diagnosis and who would have thought it would be such an extreme. I am starting to get double vision.....ugh.
But so many cannot walk where I walk and its such a rare disease....not many out there with it.
Keep climbing even if its alone.
I need to fight this war and win.
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Hi, I do not understand your disease, but I do understand fighting alone and not wanting to give up!. I am praying for you. Remember we are taking this one day at a time. I so understand missing the coke. I love coke too. I only get a coke once a month now, I let myself have a coke on holidays or special days. I really wanted a coke today. I did not give in.
Hi HopeNHim :D Hi how are you doing? Oh I love my coke but alas I\'m on a strict diet, no coke because no caffeine as it could have an effect on my ICP :( no aspartame :( low sodium :( but it has helped me as of this a.m. I am 198 lbs (lost 12 lbs in 4 weeks) Though my doctor is not happy as he thinks its too fast but I\'m doing what I am suppose to do.....lots of veggies and fruits, whole grain breads and 2 to 4 ounces of meat per day. (no beef) I am looking forward to smaller clothes lol size 12 sounds good to me.
If you need to chat let me know :D be blessed, Aim