trying to be strong

all i want to do right now is to be able to go to sleep. im in so much pain that i cant. and all i can take is motrin which doesnt help hardly at all. in 45 minutes i have to be at the dr to get my blood drawn. im so weak right now and miserable i dont want to go at all. i know i have to, and i will...but at the same time i just want to give up. i have been getting rest, but even still i have dark circles under my eyes and im so pale. i look as horrible as i feel. but to be competely honest i just want to give up. im trying to be as strong as i can, but i dont have the strength anymore.