TRYING TO BE MORE POSITIVE
SOMETIMES BEING POSITIVE IS THE HARDEST THING TO DO, WHEN SOMETIMES YOU THINK NOTHING MATTERS ANYMORE. I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I AM GOING TO START LOOKING AT THINGS MORE POSITIVE THAN I HAVE BEEN DOING DOING. I HAD A RUDE AWAKING THIS PASS SATURDAY. WE DECIDED TO GO OUT TO THE PUB SINCE WE DON'T GO OUT VERY OFTEN VERY MORE. I DRANK TOO MANY BEERS AND WE STAYED OUT WAY TOO LATE. I DON'T DRINK VERY MUCH SO USUALLY 3 PINTS OF BEER GETS ME DRUNK. WITH THAT BEING SAID I DID HAVE A GOOD TIME LISTENING TO MUSIC AND TALKING TO PEOPLE I HAVEN'T SEEN IN AWHILE AND MEETING NEW PEOPLE. ALONG IN THE NIGHT PETER STARTED TALKING TO THIS GUY THAT HE KNEW, AND WHEN THAT PERSON SARTED TALKING TO ME HE MENTIONED RIGHT OFF THAT HE THOUGHT I WAS A NEGATIVE PERSON. WHICH AT FIRST I WAS TAKEN BACK, BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS THOUGHT I WAS A POSITIVE PERSON. NOW THAT I HAVE HAD TIME TO THINK ABOUT IT, I BELIEVE I GAVE UP BEING POSITIVE WHEN MY DAUGHTER DIED AND THAT'S WHAT IT WAS THAT CHANGED IN MY PERSONALITY. I HAVE JUST BEEN GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS OF LIFE AND NOT REALLY HAVING THE THINKING TO EVEN CHANGE IT. NOW YOU MIGHT THINK WELL DON'T GO BY WHAT ONE PERSON IT A PUB, WHILE YOU WERE DRINKING , LET IT GET TO YOU. BUT WHILE TALKING IT OVER WITH PETER THE NEXT DAY,HE BELIEVED THAT I HAD CHANGED ALSO...BY THE WAY THIS PERSON THAT TOLD ME I WAS A NEGATIVE PERSON IS A MULTI MILLIONARE. WHICH I DIDN'T KNOW THAT EITHER UNTIL THE NEXT DAY WHEN TALKING TO PETER. I STARTED THIS JEWELRY BUSINESS OVER A YEAR AGO WHICH WAS DOING VERY GOOD, IT KEPT MY MIND BUSY AND MADE EXTRA INCOME FOR US. I GAVE IN HOUSE PARTIES MOSTLY. THEN IT JUST STOPPED...I ENJOYED DOING IT, THEN ALL THE SUDDEN I JUST QUIT. WHAT I WAS SELLING WAS HIGH QUALITY COSTUME JEWELRY AT AFFORDABLE PRICES. GETTING MOST OF THE JEWELRY FROM ENGLAND AND NORTHERN IRELAND. SO NOW I AM IN THE PROCESS OF THINKING OF NEW IDEAS TO SELL THE JEWELRY AND STARTING TO GET A MORE POSITIVE ATTITUDE ABOUT IT, INSTEAD OF THINKING OH HERE THIS PROBLEM IS AGAIN AND I COULD CARE LESS. MY PARTNER PETER LOSS HIS JOB YESTERDAY BECAUSE THEY WERE DOWN SIZING. HE HAS HAD THE JOB SINCE DECEMBER BEFORE THAT HE WAS SELF EMPLOYED DOING HOME IMPROVEMENT. HE HAS BEEN EDUCATED AS A ENGINEER. SO I AMM LOOKING AT THAT AS A POSITIVE THING BECAUSE MAYBE IT WAS MEANT TO BE BECAUSE WE HAVE TO GET OUR JEWELRY BUSINESS UP AND RUNNING AGAIN. SO FROM NOW ON IF I POST NEGATIVE CATCH ME UP ON IT. BECAUSE I DO REALLY WANT TO CHANGE. NOW I ALSO KNOW YOU CAN'T BE POSITVE ALL THE TIME, BUT YOU CAN AT LEAST TRY. I STARTED EXERCISEING BY WALKING TWO DAYS A WEEK AND USING MY DUSTY EXERCISE BIKE ONCE A WEEK, SO FAR I HAVE LOSS 4 POUNDS OF THE 28 I WANT TO LOSE. VERY DETERMINED TO GET THE EXTRA WEIGHT OFF. NOW IF I COULD GET ALL THE PATIENT I WORK WITH THINKING POSITIVE I WOULD HAVE IT MADE. LOL HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL AND START TO REALLY LIVE LIFE AGAIN. WE CAN NEVER BRING BACK OUR LOVE ONE BUT WE CAN'T STOP LIVING BECAUSE OF IT. I THINK OF MY DAUGHTER EVERY DAY BUT DON'T DWELL ON IT ALL DAY ANYMORE. I WILL SEE HER AGAIN AND ALL THE OTHER LOVED ONES THAT HAVE PASSED ON BEFORE ME WHEN IT IS TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE THIS WORLD, AND THAT'S ENOUGH FOR ME TODAY.
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Congratulations Honey!!!! You took the first step, which I believe is WANTING to change. And yes, you CAN be positive all of the time. Even your special memories can be a smile instead of crying. Just turn the negative energy into a positive thought. Healing is possible, it truly is, I promise. It is all in what we do to change our outlook. You are the one in control of that change. No one can do it for you. You took a huge first step, now continue with it. Concentrate on the positive things in your life. You can be a happy person again. I started out with thinking of 3 things every day that make me happy. I still do this every morning when I get up. I will help you in any way that I can. I am so very proud of you and I am so happy to be your friend! Hugs, Barbara
I am so glad that you have made a decision that will add quality to your life. Now that you have identified something take the steps to improve upon it. Being positive is a way of life and once you internalize it,it will be who you become. Hugs, Inga
Nurse,That is a wonderful revelation you got, and in an unlikely place! I wouls have though, drinking/depressant/bad mood. Well That is how much I know! How glad I am that you were where you were just when you were supposed to be. God has done this for you! I truely nelieve that your paths crossed at that minute and it was meant to be. Now you can maybe turn this into a lasting positive experience in your life. I know you can if you stick to it and try, I believe you will! I have a feeling that even though you will still have hard days, and rough nights, you will start to get back on your way forward. I will pray for you, and be thinking of you. You go girl. Reach for the sky! Love,Peggy
Good for you!I hope that someday I will even want to be positive but right now I just don\'t have it in me. I\'m seeing a new Therapist soon hoping maybe she can help me to let go of the negative.. peace & love Tammy
I agree you have started down the right path and you can do it. I like Barbara\'s three positives a day. Every day you have to come up with three positives, in the beginning it\'s hard but as the days go by and you really look, you begin to realize there is a lot of positives if we actively look for them. To be positive all the time is impossible but to be mostly positive is a doable goal. Good luck on the weight loss, I started and then got derailed by life. Love and hugs Cathy