TRYING TO BE MORE POSITIVE
SOMETIMES BEING POSITIVE IS THE HARDEST THING TO DO, WHEN SOMETIMES YOU THINK NOTHING MATTERS ANYMORE. I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I AM GOING TO START LOOKING AT THINGS MORE POSITIVE THAN I HAVE BEEN DOING DOING. I HAD A RUDE AWAKING THIS PASS SATURDAY. WE DECIDED TO GO OUT TO THE PUB SINCE WE DON'T GO OUT VERY OFTEN VERY MORE. I DRANK TOO MANY BEERS AND WE STAYED OUT WAY TOO LATE. I DON'T DRINK VERY MUCH SO USUALLY 3 PINTS OF BEER GETS ME DRUNK. WITH THAT BEING SAID I DID HAVE A GOOD TIME LISTENING TO MUSIC AND TALKING TO PEOPLE I HAVEN'T SEEN IN AWHILE AND MEETING NEW PEOPLE. ALONG IN THE NIGHT PETER STARTED TALKING TO THIS GUY THAT HE KNEW, AND WHEN THAT PERSON SARTED TALKING TO ME HE MENTIONED RIGHT OFF THAT HE THOUGHT I WAS A NEGATIVE PERSON. WHICH AT FIRST I WAS TAKEN BACK, BECAUSE I HAVE ALWAYS THOUGHT I WAS A POSITIVE PERSON. NOW THAT I HAVE HAD TIME TO THINK ABOUT IT, I BELIEVE I GAVE UP BEING POSITIVE WHEN MY DAUGHTER DIED AND THAT'S WHAT IT WAS THAT CHANGED IN MY PERSONALITY. I HAVE JUST BEEN GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS OF LIFE AND NOT REALLY HAVING THE THINKING TO EVEN CHANGE IT. NOW YOU MIGHT THINK WELL DON'T GO BY WHAT ONE PERSON IT A PUB, WHILE YOU WERE DRINKING , LET IT GET TO YOU. BUT WHILE TALKING IT OVER WITH PETER THE NEXT DAY,HE BELIEVED THAT I HAD CHANGED ALSO...BY THE WAY THIS PERSON THAT TOLD ME I WAS A NEGATIVE PERSON IS A MULTI MILLIONARE. WHICH I DIDN'T KNOW THAT EITHER UNTIL THE NEXT DAY WHEN TALKING TO PETER. I STARTED THIS JEWELRY BUSINESS OVER A YEAR AGO WHICH WAS DOING VERY GOOD, IT KEPT MY MIND BUSY AND MADE EXTRA INCOME FOR US. I GAVE IN HOUSE PARTIES MOSTLY. THEN IT JUST STOPPED...I ENJOYED DOING IT, THEN ALL THE SUDDEN I JUST QUIT. WHAT I WAS SELLING WAS HIGH QUALITY COSTUME JEWELRY AT AFFORDABLE PRICES. GETTING MOST OF THE JEWELRY FROM ENGLAND AND NORTHERN IRELAND. SO NOW I AM IN THE PROCESS OF THINKING OF NEW IDEAS TO SELL THE JEWELRY AND STARTING TO GET A MORE POSITIVE ATTITUDE ABOUT IT, INSTEAD OF THINKING OH HERE THIS PROBLEM IS AGAIN AND I COULD CARE LESS. MY PARTNER PETER LOSS HIS JOB YESTERDAY BECAUSE THEY WERE DOWN SIZING. HE HAS HAD THE JOB SINCE DECEMBER BEFORE THAT HE WAS SELF EMPLOYED DOING HOME IMPROVEMENT. HE HAS BEEN EDUCATED AS A ENGINEER. SO I AMM LOOKING AT THAT AS A POSITIVE THING BECAUSE MAYBE IT WAS MEANT TO BE BECAUSE WE HAVE TO GET OUR JEWELRY BUSINESS UP AND RUNNING AGAIN. SO FROM NOW ON IF I POST NEGATIVE CATCH ME UP ON IT. BECAUSE I DO REALLY WANT TO CHANGE. NOW I ALSO KNOW YOU CAN'T BE POSITVE ALL THE TIME, BUT YOU CAN AT LEAST TRY. I STARTED EXERCISEING BY WALKING TWO DAYS A WEEK AND USING MY DUSTY EXERCISE BIKE ONCE A WEEK, SO FAR I HAVE LOSS 4 POUNDS OF THE 28 I WANT TO LOSE. VERY DETERMINED TO GET THE EXTRA WEIGHT OFF. NOW IF I COULD GET ALL THE PATIENT I WORK WITH THINKING POSITIVE I WOULD HAVE IT MADE. LOL HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL AND START TO REALLY LIVE LIFE AGAIN. WE CAN NEVER BRING BACK OUR LOVE ONE BUT WE CAN'T STOP LIVING BECAUSE OF IT. I THINK OF MY DAUGHTER EVERY DAY BUT DON'T DWELL ON IT ALL DAY ANYMORE. I WILL SEE HER AGAIN AND ALL THE OTHER LOVED ONES THAT HAVE PASSED ON BEFORE ME WHEN IT IS TIME FOR ME TO LEAVE THIS WORLD, AND THAT'S ENOUGH FOR ME TODAY.
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