trying not to focus on the pain and just shut down
work went well today
i was thinking about how we all have to deal with self
responsibility to get going on the job as well as they friction we can
feel as we get on with the work - work stress? is normal
and yet we all accept it to a certain degree and in reality
it's kind of like playing sports - a roughhousing energy
anyways
a couple of things happened at work
that were kind of sharp snapping road signs
of life that were like a slap to my face and
heart - but I am keeping on keeping on
and as I drove home and just thought about the good and bad things
we all do - and in the face of coworkers who don't care
so much about relationships
I am thinking of creating a life out here in the face of it -
I don't need to hide - I deserve good things even though
bad stuff happens
it's not their reality OR mine -
but kind of both in the consideration of all the stuff I plan to do.
I still deserve to make some projects for myself even though
others exist who are nefarious types and shouldn't get the say about
what I do.
maybe there's just an athleticism to life outside of work as well.
that I have to get used to. Don't just focus on the pain
but maybe turn it into inspiration - stress that inspires and makes it all
relative?..and sportive?
don't focus on the pain and shutdown
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I'm sorry your going through a tough time. Music therapy might help?
Thanks! I’ll turn on the radio!:)
Yeah, athleticism is a good word. Life is one big sportive game for many and it sucks when emotions are the ball getting tossed back and forth.
I’m not cut out for that stuff.