trying my hardest

My husband who was my world had a good relationship with his brother and sister. Martins brother and sister have been very helpful to me and so has one of his friends. I tried to repair a battle well it did not work so I moved on. Last night, when I went to sleep I dreamt that I was with my husband in a cabin and it was so peaceful I went into the kitchen at the cabin and he got up and told me he loved me and we will be together soon. Then he said you need to moan me longer? I did not understand that..