trying not to go into ideas...trying to just cope with the moods

I went to work today, and my moods were all over the place. I felt empty, lacking value, weak and just kind of lost.

But I had the presence of mind to just keep on with the tasks and I started to take value but also real important that I just started to kind of see the pendulum swinging inside sort of - that I was having moods all over and yet I stayed on task.

No matter how my life manifests, I can take heart from doing a good job. Engaging with coworkers and customers. I did a good job at work and then left at the designated time. One little interaction with a customer kind of set me off at the end but I am trying to not let that build up into something untenable or ridiculous.

The transition to being on my own is something that makes me fall into a kind of sadness. So empty. Such an empty life.

But then I think about my brother and sisters out there, working and surviving. I think of my parents and my niece and friends who I haven't seen in ages.I will drag myself to the bank now... and the windows are open and the birds are singing! Best music around!! :)