trust broken will it heal

Ok so I figured out the REAL problem Trust. I freaked out last night because I did not trust him to go where he said he was going, or to come back when he said he was coming back. I am disappointed in the fact that I thought I could just forgive his behavior of going where he knew I wouldnt like, and basically being deceitfull. Although he figured he did nothing wrong by what he did. He said since it bothered me he wouldnt go there anymore, and would have nothing to do with those people. So I feel that he was decitfull, lying sneaking=cheating although he didnt have interfcourse. It was still long term lying cheating sneaking.So I  cant just forget it, although I REEEEEEALLY want to. I want it to go away, get out of my head, it never happened. so although last night he was honest, went where he said he was going to go and came back as agreed, I was freaking out and vindictively angry. good news is, he didnt use that as an excuse to run off and go back where hes not supposed to go. The bad news is I don't trust him not to return to his old behavior. I am afraid. I dont want to be. I really dont like this clingy distrustfull me. What if he runs off tonight? Can i stand it? No I can't. If he goes anywhere tonight and disappears, Im going hunting him. I just cant stand this. He says we're ok. But he sound's funny, like he's mad at me still. And I am afraid he is going back to his "new" friends. And I cant take it...............It's too fresh, it's too raw. I mean really, 2 weeks ago he was lying about his destination, and return time, and I find out he's giving a stripper a ride home at 4 AM . Decitfull lying even though there was no sex it's still cheating to me because he lied and was sneeking around. I want to let it go and it hurts still.And I could ignore it and have a good time with him, The last 2 weeks have been like a honeymooon until last night.but now I've started my period and we dont usually do anything when Im on, and I just want to be in his lap, and I just want him to touch me. Touch my hair smile at me, and i dont think he will since im on its not fair. I need him more that i ever have and I dont know if he needs me at all