true feelings

we i am making progress little by little i think i am losing wait really slow i am aware that one of my medication may cause bad weight gain i am happy to report i am keeping it off . Summer is coming to a end in a month i starting to cool down i need to make sure i have control of my actives i want to get a job or just have things during to week do go and participated the only real fear of mine at this moment is being home less i have some income so this reality  might not happened i still need to  be prepared  i was up thinking about the future and right now i have no idea what is goona happen scary thought  i need to start getting serious about it cause when time runs out i am SOL . you know i would love to drive but i know i would most likely panic  it got out of control so best i don't drive its for the best i  could never afford a car in my dream and insincere is really expensive i have adapted to not having a car would it be nice yes do i need and want that's a understatement  soda is my biggest down fall i hope i can stop drinking it i watched a video o when you boil it and it was all tar like substance  gross  i want to make a friend thats a lady so we can hang out and talk to and its hard to find that cause once you hit adulthood life happened and there is not enough time for friends someone i would like to find a good friend it will be hard but its doable