*triggering* Why Do I Want This

Okay so beside my good mood, slightly frustrated moood(didnt get to have much fun with my bf tonight) im worrying a little....
am i really that fucked up??i WANT my arms to look like this... seirously i find my self wishing my arms had pretty, YES pretty marks like this.. :Stheres somethign wrong with me.... i just dont have the guts to go this deep.... not again.....

These are not my photos, i take no credit for them. just admiration :/