Trigger warning..

He told me to back off. He told me he loved her today. I understand. I am not good enough. I have never been good enough. I am a waste. I tore my arm up today. It felt really good. I am so numb. I don't feel like I can feel emotions. My tears won't even come now. I cried so much. I just... I can't anymore. I can't. I'm not even excited about vacation anymore...