Trick or Treat

So its Trick or Treat day here today.... I think about all of our past Trick or Treat days.. when we took our 2 little girls out with some of our family back then. But what was most painful for me today was going shopping for our first born daughter's birthday. Her birthday is the day before Halloween. Anyway, I found the perfect card for her at Walgreens & trying to stifle my tears. Then on the way to shop for her I start thinking..... 35 yrs ago I was very pregnant & young & happy.. then of course I start sobbing.  But I do have to say that I am getting through this painful, hard time of my life and I strongly feel my husband's presence with me. It is just hard to think of birthdays and such.. especially when it is the birthday of your first born...and you think..  I always thought he would be with me at this time....... it sucks big time.