Traveling soon...
This was a nice evening. I was able to spend it with my brother and mom before Luke leaves for Durango tomorrow afternoon. Tomorrow, I also go back to my dad's house. Again, I must say that my mom is making me feel guilty for the move back over there. One of the worst parts is that I have really enjoyed staying with my mom. We can get really close. I hope things wont go wrong when I move back over to dad's. But, that is just what I need to think, it's my dad's house and no one else's. I think that I will be welcomed back there tomorrow. I wrote both Ti and Chi a nice card for Christmas even though neither of them had gotten me anything even a card. Something else that I though was odd is that I got a card from Baccie but I think that it was done by either uncle Tom or uncle Terry. Luke got a card from them with a check for $100 and when I got a card it had nothing in it. I am not sure what went wrong or what the reasoning behind it was. I am over thinking it in my head but I should just let it go that way there is nothing to worry about. Tomorrow I am going to give dad my monthly statement it is around $450 this month for everything. I ordered my books this evening for four of my classes, the fith one I am waiting to learn what books I need. I think my books added up to around $500. I also need to give him the tuition bill. I need to go to class everyday. I can't do what I have been doing in the past and riding on the coat tails of my disability. I need to go to class everyday. This is so important and I think that I am going to really enjoy learning from these classes this semester.
My mom really is making me feel strange about going back to my dad's house. Dad seems to be lonely and so do I so I think that we can be good for each other. I don't feel that he has a manic-depressive illness, I simply think that he may have clinical depression and a slight case of anxiety. I believe he is on a medium dosage of antidepressants and a higher dosage of propranalol for both a shake and at times it can be good for anxiety. My disorder is much more severe and thus, calls more more medications in much higher dosages. Especially the xanax and seroquel.
I can't wait to see what internship I am going to get. I truly hope that I get an internship with the hospital either in neurology or in the psych department at the children's hospital. I also desperately want a great job. Something that I am proud to do and excited to do as well. I want all of this because I believe that these destractions may lead to better performance. But, you never know. Luke smoked a ton of pot and received all A's this semester. School is so important for me right now. Especially with my dream of becoming a psychologist.
It's almost nine and I wanted to go to bed early today so I must go.
Goodnight moon.
My mom really is making me feel strange about going back to my dad's house. Dad seems to be lonely and so do I so I think that we can be good for each other. I don't feel that he has a manic-depressive illness, I simply think that he may have clinical depression and a slight case of anxiety. I believe he is on a medium dosage of antidepressants and a higher dosage of propranalol for both a shake and at times it can be good for anxiety. My disorder is much more severe and thus, calls more more medications in much higher dosages. Especially the xanax and seroquel.
I can't wait to see what internship I am going to get. I truly hope that I get an internship with the hospital either in neurology or in the psych department at the children's hospital. I also desperately want a great job. Something that I am proud to do and excited to do as well. I want all of this because I believe that these destractions may lead to better performance. But, you never know. Luke smoked a ton of pot and received all A's this semester. School is so important for me right now. Especially with my dream of becoming a psychologist.
It's almost nine and I wanted to go to bed early today so I must go.
Goodnight moon.
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